Free gas here, no gimmicks.

I focused part of my week earlier in the month to search out experiencing God and improving the relationship that I have felt I am abandoning. I absolutely become disgusted with myself when I spend my free time doing nothing. Nothing, as defined by myself, represents a collection of the following assorted events: watching TV, typing in chat rooms, sitting around my house like a bump on a log and anything else that falls under the "I wish I would get up and make some progress, but I'd rather sit here and waste my day" category. Anyway, as I sliced and diced the umimportant occurrences from my daily lifestyles, it aided in the revisitation of a significant concept that I have let lie dormant. By sacrificing unneccessary wants for replacement by necessary needs, I make myself vulnerable to the Holy Spirit. Vulnerability to receive the annointing, and to share my innermost feelings with my confidant, Jesus Christ.

Being selfless and giving it all up to Him really lets God know that He is in control. As I read recently in an email, if God is your co-pilot then switch seats. I believe my inability to not let loose has begun to finally end by the grace of God. I have given Him control of almost all of me, and I'm letting Him work out the details so that I'll release completely.

Over the time that I spent talking to God, I wrote a poem that summarizes my prayer to the Lord. I am also writing a poem that symbolizes the answer provided by my Heavenly Father.

My prayer illustrates the idols I have made to replace God, namely sports gambling. I want God to be at the top for sure and so these are my words:

Playing the game of chance has always had its thrills
Anticipating the ball's bounce, risking the big bills
But does it really profit a man's soul
to trust in something so out of control?

Anger and remorse, a feeling of defeat
In need of a fix that is a little more concrete
Looking to the world to discover a solution
Just a temporary replacement to stop the revolution
An uprising of evil, tempations abound
I'm losing the identity I thought that I had found

Confused and dismayed, I look to the sky
Without any hope I ask, "God, Why should I even try?"
I cannot be perfect, I'll forever let you down
With your expectations comes a fear that I will drown

I expect the most from myself to know wrong from right
Lately it seems I sin completely out of spite
Why do I let evil filter into my heart
Building a nest for lies, and allowing the devil a headstart

I refuse to let lucifer win, but where do I begin?
I know the truth, I know the way
I ask you Lord, in Your Name I pray:

Wake me up from my nightmare; this life that discards you
I ask you to be included in everything I do
I don't want my possessions, I give them all to you
I ask you keep them from me, because with them I am through

God, you must be first above all wordly things
Please destroy my idols; only sorrow and loneliness they bring
Provide me with the strength to overcome the battle
If I happen to slip off my horse, push me back onto the saddle

In you I place my trust, I ask for your forgiveness
Cleanse my heart of this mess I've made, I want it to be sinless
Motivate me to be the man that I know you have desired
A Christian leader with a heart that is emblazened with your fire

Burning with your love, shimmering with your passion
Outwardly showing this world that Jesus is still in fashion
Holy Spirit rain down, annoint my weary soul
I'm hungry for your goodness, in you I want to grow

I want to know you God, I want to shout your Name
From this night on Jesus, I pray I'll never be the same!

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By the way, God told me that although gas prices are rising, you can always fill your soul up for FREE at any of His nearby stations including: at home, in the car, at the workplace, in bed, in the shower or bath, at church, or even at the computer. Simply open the mouth, state out loud that you receive Him and be filled free of charge!

Live passionately and sincerely...

P.S. If you don't know already, a few scattered T-Storms will be in the area Friday, so have an umbrella handy. Also, Saturday morning should see a nice squall line develop and move thru southeast Texas. Just a precursor!